Well, I am again unemployed. This is the first time I've ever actually gotten fired from a job instead of leaving. If you're asking "well, what did you do?", so am I. I got broken up with over a thirty-second phone call that just said "we're making some changes and your services are no longer needed" at noon on my day off. That was it. Wasn't like "hey, was good working with you", no explanation for why, just "Okay? Alright, bye." And no, there were no writeups, no paper trail for any Read more
Well, what is this? A drawing from your old pal Cammy? Yeah, turns out Warring with my Mental Health doesn't stop me from drawing a fucking picture, because I don't suck dick on the weekends, so instead I lined this sketch of Bunny and afan from last year and shaded and colored it all sunny, because happy Easter, you fucks! Good times. Completely unrelated story: sometimes it takes a dragon spitting in your mouth (while fruitily whispering into your snoot how much you like it) for you to Read more
hifi finally went live two days ago. I've honestly been looking at it all day, on every single computer, phone, and device I can get in my hands. I'm not just thrilled, I'm satisfied. There's still lots to be done, but I've reclaimed a huge part of the way I present myself to the world, one that's been a two year plus process. I'm still pretty beat from another forty hour work week, and I've been misspelling every word I type here, so I'll keep this brief. (Update from post-writing: I did not Read more
Journal! Why have I forsaken you. I don't particularly want to dump a load of really personal shit out onto the Internet, but I have been going through one of the most unstable mental health episodes I've ever experienced. My mood has been a fucking yo-yo. For extra hilarity, I also decided to start a strict diet and temporarily quit drinking to gain some mental clarity, and while I ultimately think those were a good call, short term, I am down two things that I quite enjoyed in a period of Read more
I have had this unexplainable sense of impending doom over the past week or so. It always gets disproven, I know these thoughts are usually pretty silly, and I've experienced enough emotional upset in my life to learn to ignore it pretty well. Still, vividly imagining my getting terminated at work or spending this morning pondering how all my backups would be completely fucked in the case of a house fire, of course. (Tossing out all my working creative methods to try and make it easier on Read more
Happy belated six months of me working at my current job! This puts it in second place for longest jobs held, ahead of Staples and certainly ahead of Giant. It's been pretty good! Working at a beer distributor definitely beats working alcohol sales at grocery stores—lower volume of traffic, actual benefits, no purchase restrictions (I could sell you a whole 192oz back when I worked the grocery stores!), no assholes not buying booze who treat me as a human fast lane instead of the designated Read more
Y'know, it still feels incredibly weird to refer to myself as having mental health issues. I think it comes from years of having enemies trying to fuck with me and me going "well, I'm not about to give you the satisfaction of watching me suffah". In all truth, mine are not so bad I can't get up and go to work and have hobbies and friends, but sometimes we careen between the rabbit and the hare ends of the spectrum, to use a niche reference. Fuck all that though. hifi is being built! hifi is the Read more
Sunday night, I began a project I've wanted to do for years now, but kept putting off because of its sheer size and scope. So when I released In Free Fall in 2019, it was actually meant to be a two-pronged thing. I had this album of remastered and reworked older tracks as my debut as aphrodisiac, and then album #2 was gonna be all newly-sequenced stuff. This album was gonna be called Isolated Together—which predates the lockdowns, so you know. It was more a reference to being stuck at college Read more
Happy six years, Caby <3 It's been a strange last couple of years as life re-enters the picture and we get busy and don't just have time to hang out all day like we used to, but I'm really happy to say I'm less clueless now and understand her better, and she understands me better as well. Our discussions don't turn into argumetns anymore. It's been well over a month since we last fought, which maybe doesn't sound like a long time, but it's the most peaceful we've felt in a very long time. Read more
First drawing of the year finished! January is Wynuary, as is tradition, and I wanted to add to the weirdly large pile of "Wyn exploring the dark with a flashlight" drawings. Mine has some shitty layered fog though, ooooh! Yeah, first time painting fog, and I think it came out...interesting. I used the bleeding watercolor brush in FireAlpaca and then smudged it. There's five different layers of darkness here, some on top of the boy, some underneath. It does give it a nice sense of depth, at Read more
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