Journal! Why have I forsaken you. I don't particularly want to dump a load of really personal shit out onto the Internet, but I have been going through one of the most unstable mental health episodes I've ever experienced. My mood has been a fucking yo-yo. For extra hilarity, I also decided to start a strict diet and temporarily quit drinking to gain some mental clarity, and while I ultimately think those were a good call, short term, I am down two things that I quite enjoyed in a period of Read more
I have had this unexplainable sense of impending doom over the past week or so. It always gets disproven, I know these thoughts are usually pretty silly, and I've experienced enough emotional upset in my life to learn to ignore it pretty well. Still, vividly imagining my getting terminated at work or spending this morning pondering how all my backups would be completely fucked in the case of a house fire, of course. (Tossing out all my working creative methods to try and make it easier on Read more
Happy belated six months of me working at my current job! This puts it in second place for longest jobs held, ahead of Staples and certainly ahead of Giant. It's been pretty good! Working at a beer distributor definitely beats working alcohol sales at grocery stores—lower volume of traffic, actual benefits, no purchase restrictions (I could sell you a whole 192oz back when I worked the grocery stores!), no assholes not buying booze who treat me as a human fast lane instead of the designated Read more
Y'know, it still feels incredibly weird to refer to myself as having mental health issues. I think it comes from years of having enemies trying to fuck with me and me going "well, I'm not about to give you the satisfaction of watching me suffah". In all truth, mine are not so bad I can't get up and go to work and have hobbies and friends, but sometimes we careen between the rabbit and the hare ends of the spectrum, to use a niche reference. Fuck all that though. hifi is being built! hifi is the Read more
Sunday night, I began a project I've wanted to do for years now, but kept putting off because of its sheer size and scope. So when I released In Free Fall in 2019, it was actually meant to be a two-pronged thing. I had this album of remastered and reworked older tracks as my debut as aphrodisiac, and then album #2 was gonna be all newly-sequenced stuff. This album was gonna be called Isolated Together—which predates the lockdowns, so you know. It was more a reference to being stuck at college Read more
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