It really feels like I don't write on here as often as I used to, but apparently, I wrote seven entries in January. So I guess there's still stuff going up all the time? News to me.

I've spent the past two days packing and getting last-minute technical stuff situated for my departure tomorrow, making sure server stuff is automated and accessible halfway across the world, loading some more games and music on my 3DS, that sorta stuff. I'm gonna use the next month like I used the last semester of college: I want to spend it wandering whenever I want, eating, sleeping, hanging out with Caby, and writing stories (and doodling now!). I want to reconnect with that creative urge that I've been stifling because I have Something Else to work on first. I'd like to indulge myself more.

Her parents have been nothing but supportive—apparently without Caby even being involved, they were looking into the best way to get me moved over there, and they've (again without her prompting) offered to take me in while her and I look for a place. I'm in a really privileged position to be able to do this, honestly, on both sides of the Atlantic. I want to enjoy it, and I have an idea I've been really excited for for a long time to work on while I'm there.

Funnily enough, I've not felt this free of anxiety in a while now. I really think it was hearing that MiloHax literally celebrated the one year of me departing their server. Something clicked in me when I learned about that on stream—I felt for a long time like I was cast off and forgotten unfairly, but now I have proof of how much I affected, that I am the most important person in that server's history. Seriously, imagine a whole-ass server of hundreds of people celebrating the departure of a single one, complete with announcements and server icon changes. lol. lmao, even.

I really think their well dried up. All the big Deluxe projects dropped when I was still there, one of which has my sticky hands all over it, and they're not talented enough to figure out the real crazy shit with those games, like model replacement (which is about the only thing we still can't do with GH2). They literally made new Neocities accounts with reuploads of the sites I made for them, plus censored versions of my callouts (you can see these links for the uncensored ones, there is no protecting the guilty). I'm so awful! But all my contributions to Deluxe are probably still in those mods, and they'll still reuse the sites I made for them.

I won. I won! I went and made an album and drew a ton of shit and wrote a book and hung out with my GF in person and they can't even make new sites. I won.

I was poking around at my chart testing disc again last night. Shit is still so awesome, I'd forgotten how great everything I did on that game was. Great charts, great songs (with a ton more still left to do), and some nice new features to boot. Internet drama isn't the only reason I put marfGH on hold; I want to be better at drawing first as well, especially being able to draw my Flareon boy marf, so I can retexture all the menus. Still, goddamn, what a cool bunch of charts.

I have some more fingers in some more pies at the moment, stuff outside Somnol. I'm feeling more social than ever, honestly. Think 2024 is going to be a killer fucking year. Hopefully will update this while I'm over there, given that there will be no later trip diary as said.