Welcome back to cammy.somnol, intrepid web people. I think I pulled down the old site in February of this year or so? So that would make us eight months into radio silence. Thankfully, I'm reclaiming one of my sites again.

If you follow what I do, you're probably aware that I archived the Scratchpad back in February as well, the Scratchpad being my prior blog. What makes me come back after swearing off blogging? What's different this time? Why did I not just revive the Scratchpad? After all, I kept all the exported data...

I went over it a little in the "Thank You for Everything, Scratchpad" post at the very end there, but part of the reason I dropped it was because every single post had become a big production. I needed to write it out, edit it, gather images, structure it, and by the end, it wasn't so much a personal blog as it was an edited essay archive. That's great! No doubt about it. But I overdo everything. I didn't need to overdo my blog as well.

But it goes deeper than that, really. The Scratchpad was started back when I still had the "Content first" (note the capital C) mindset. For years, I couldn't much talk about myself. I was just the schlub doing all this stuff. The Scratchpad was me taking my ideas, opinions, and interests and turning them into Content, the kinda stuff people can share out (and indeed, a good handful of my Scratchpad posts did get shared out places! Very cool). It had to be this way; I didn't want to talk about me, who wants to read about that? Who am I? Not much without all this Content I'm making...

In short, it was really my rigid way of not really putting me, myself, and I out there, feeling like I didn't deserve that kinda platform, even on my own site. Guess that's kinda sad, but I'm autistic. I think in these really rigid ways and I have to consciously grow more comfortable with not working like that. I'm also still basically a teenager, and I'm doing my best to drop all the bad habits I picked up from being a teenager with shitty friends.

Thankfully, for all the bad stuff I can say about this year, I'm definitely getting more comfortable with a site that is about me—the badger boy behind all these stories and mods and drawings. It helps that I actually have things going on in my life now, working nearly full time for six whole months now, saving up for cars and trips, and just progressing in life beyond the NEETdom that I got stuck in because jobs were scary and lockdowns meant masks and I just wasn't wearing those thanks.

So I'll be here, talking about that life stuff. Creative stuff will factor into it, obviously (I'm me, I never stop making things!), but I'm trying not to edit it and make it Content. It's just a day-to-day place to talk about what's on my mind and what good things are going on in my world. I expect nobody but the Somnolians to read it and I am more than happy about that.

(Oh, also, WIP drawings. I'll be posting those!)